Hey blog! Haha it's been a long time since I felt a desire to blog (: Yea well anyway as the title of this post says, I'm officially seventeen now :D Heheh

Yea anyway I was feeling pretty emotional (hence the blog post) about my new year of life so I kinda did my QT as usual when I feel emoish. I thought a bit about life and stuff and I started crying O: Haha I realized how I haven't properly thanked God for this life He has given me. Even as I was giving thanks for His faithfulness in the past 16 years of my life, I started realizing how lucky I was to be chosen as His son, to be adopted as His child and to be cleansed of my sins. Its not to say that just because He claimed me as His own I'd live an easy life, in fact it is usually the other way round. All these years I've been wallowing in self-pity and inferiority complex, I failed to see all that is good in life. I always compared myself to others, that I'm not handsome, not smart, not athletic, not musically inclined, not rich, not charming, not cool, not popular etc etc. However I've come to see that the fact that God has given me a life to experience is more than I could ever thank Him for. So long as I am in Him and He in me, well I guess that should be more than sufficient for me (: I finally understand when people say, be comfortable with yourself. Not because you lower your standards, but because there are better things in life to focus on rather than comparison. Once you take your eyes off yourself and other humans and lock them upon God's glory, all things seem so... I don't know, redundant? I'm really glad God gave me this revelation on this day. I want to spend the rest of this year living life to the fullest. And by that I don't really mean like doing as many things as I can and spending each second doing something beneficial. But rather, shift my gaze from myself and comparing me with others, to living each day for God. I really hope I can stay with this thought, this will be my "new year's resolution".

Another thing I was feeling kinda emo about was once again, girls & relationship *sigh* I mean what would an emo session be without thoughts of girls yea? HAHA! Yea so I was watching Disney's Hercules (this was originally what got me started on being emo btw), gotta love Disney's storyplot. ANYWAY, so Hercules falls in love with this girl who stops believing in love anymore after she got cheated previously (sounds like many girls in this age *haish*). He slowly works his way into her heart and they both died for each other and lived happily ever after (hard to explain go watch yourself xD). Yea so as I was watching the progress of this love story, I slowly thought of myself and wondered what kind of love story would unfold in my life in the future? Will the girl be a naive girl who believes in true love? Or will the girl have a heart of stone, hardened by the broken trust put in guys in the past? Will we fall in love in an instant? Or will I have to work my way into her heart bit by bit? Well getting older sorta got me thinking about all these I guess and all I can say is that as much as I desire an intimate relationship, I know that I am not ready for it. I definitely do not want my girlfriend to have a relationship with the current childish me, I want God to mould me and purify me so that I can be the best man I can be for my future girlfriend (:

Well yea anyway thats all the thoughts I have for tonight, I'm pretty tired after crying so gonna sleep nao X.x haha nights!~