Hai bloggy! Heh been some time since I last posted :D Aye although don't really feel like posting too much stuff here anymore lolll, TOO MANY PEOPLE STARTING TO READ! D: I always thought my blog was a safe place for me to rant, free from community, then suddenly have influx of visitors >:( Haha sian yet another site in which I have to watch what I sayyy~ Sorry bloggeh, I can't be as authentic as I used to be with you anymore ):

Owell~ anw, I'm kinda feeling stressed from normal teenage guys stuffs, academics, religion, girls :/
Hehheh after being in school for 2 weeks or so since holiday ended, I realize I haven't absorbed a single thing from school, mainly cause I don't pay attention xD Haha and things are pretty bad, cause I'm about 2 chapters behind all the subjects I'm taking and exams are just round the corner, next month if I'm not wrong? Haish, I just can't find the will to listen in class, if I find that I'm not understanding what teacher is talking about, my brain just switches off and goes into 'play mode', SMSing ppl, using laptop, sleeping and whatnots :/ Hopefully my last minute studying can save me from lousy grades cause I really need to pull up or at least maintain my 3.6 GPA!! Dang poly sure is taking the discipline outta me :X Been a long time since I felt stressed over schoolwork ROFL!

Aye then religion, namely Christianity! <3 Haha I graduated from my cell a year ago and started cell leadership. After a year of being a leader, I'm starting to understand the pains and responsibility of being a leader, appreciating Van, Jon and Car more each week :/ Its not only just the stuff that I do in cell that matters, but the things I do outside. I have to make sure that my life is right with God, that I'm being a good Christian role-model everywhere I go, that I watch what I say and do. Because all these affect my relationship with God and in turn affects the way I lead the cell members. I'm starting to realize that I hold a great responsibility over their lives and that I have to account to God for each and everyone of them one day. The cell members count on me to follow after God because they are following after me, I never want to have to see them stumble or backslide because I led them in the wrong path... Pretty stressful trying to be a good Christian sometimes, the friends I have in poly... Haha not helping~ And the sins I'm struggling with in my life, affects the way I worship God, affects the way I lead in cell grawrrr! So tired~

Lastly... Girls D: Omg haha nightmare xD I never know what they're thinking ahahaha! Hai don't wanna post too much here due to privacy reasons, I should really get LiveJournal huh? X.x well anyway, so much for protecting their hearts and my heart ROFL! Just hope I don't become like the guys in my school, chatting up girls for the sake of, idk? Bragging rights? Haha yes, the guys in my school brag about how fast they are able to make girls open up to them, brag about how many girls they can flirt with at a single time etc etc. Yup that's guys in engineering for you. I feel sickened by the way they view girls sometimes, but sadly, I can understand the appeal in that. No wonder girls feel so angry at guys sometimes. Yeah anyway, I'm just feeling confused about the messages some girls are sending, how're they feeling about me and stuff~ Not that it matters of course LOL!

Yup but o well, nothing major to really fret over anyway, probably just feeling a little overwhelmed~ I'm still alive, God still loves me and I still have friends so don't have to think too much lah huh :P Just wanna live a simple, easy and carefree life wheeee!~ Heh haven't been doing a good quiet time for sometime, maybe tonight I'll just let God show me things from His perspective and maybe things won't seem like so much of a big deal after all :3