Heh wassup blogging community (: Hai I'm not really in the mood to blog right now but, then again, a 16th birthday only comes once in a lifetime ;P I'm still plagued by my troubles even more than ever and I'm still very scared for my future. The service really did help calm my nerves and put things in God's perspective for me but the human nature in me still tends to rise up heh... I may be a teenager but im still a spiritual baby /: Okay well nvm all those, come to that in a little while~ I celebrated my birthday on Sunday, a day b4 my actual birthday on 1st of Feb. Went out with Jing Jie, Rui Jie, Jing Yu and Jillian. Haha was actually expecting more ppl to turn up but due to some stuff alot couldn't but I don't mind, don't think I can keep my mask on to so many ppl either. Its not that I didn't have fun, but I used that day as a means of escape from my reality which I could not bear. Truth is deep inside, Im very insecure and worried... scared. But still, got to thank all of them really for making my birthday an enjoyable one, especially Jing Jie (: At least the vision that I'll be celebrating my 16th birthday alone didn't come to pass hahaha xD Anw, these few days was really hard for me, setbacks after setbacks in one sense or another. I don't know for how long I can take this any longer but I know I'm reaching my limit... I've always been a simple guy, can't take this kind of emotional stress hehe, yea. Well refining fire or not, I'll trust in the Lord still and I hope He'll honor me by taking away my suffering asap. Really desperate for this situation to end. Haha actually there's been many other activities that I did like going to Sentosa, going night cycling, our cell's farewell cell and stuff, all worth one blog post each... Too bad I just had to feel this way. Yups anyway I'm going off soon, tired from crying. Been acting like a pussy the last few days, can't stand myself for being so weak ;( This is a scared me signing off~
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Personal Message: Would death actually be a better option? Haha I kid ;P