Hey whassup dudes and dudettes (: Aye this past few days has been more struggles with my faith in God. My JC subject combination really sucked and my the result of my poly appeal was my 3rd choice, all these demoralising events really sucked me into a spiral of unhealthy and rebellious thoughts. Throughout the worship and service this Saturday, I can hear the Devil planting lies and thoughts into my mind that caused me to lose my motivation to worship my Lord. The worst part about this is, I couldn't deny or make a comeback for any of those thoughts. Finally I decided to let go of those thoughts though and let go and let God. Even though things ended well, I still regret being affected that much before that. Yup this past week has been a constant struggle for faith and choices, like example now, I'm faced with a choice whether to continue in JC or move on to poly. My church friends tell me that its all God's plan to put me in JC and that I should trust Him and stuff, while my parents and relatives tell me that I have better prospects in poly compared to the 'half-assed' subject combi that my JC offered me. I am truly confused by which is the truth. However, I know that whereever I go, God still can use me for His purpose and ultimately, I just have to work hard no matter where I go (:
Anyways I spent today celebrating part 2 of my birthday LOL hahaha I went out with Wei Xuan, Jing Yu, Sin Pong, Rui Jie and Jillian. Aye if there's one thing that I can thank God for, its the friends He's provided me with. Without them, I don't know what I'll be. Went PP to rollerblade and cycle, then ate dinner. They made me a card and bought me a pair of pants haha not to mention the sweet cake they bought for me (: I'm really thankful for all these as I think that this is God's way of supporting me through them, and as I said, they are really a blessing to me =D
Hahaha anyway its been a long time since I've posted a song and so I'll be posting one. This song is really amazing and inspirational (: I present to you, Pray by True Vibes:

Thinking though, what to do
You're searchin' every angle, and point of view
Good advice, well rehearsed
Only seems to make matters worse

When you're at a dead-end, where can you go?
My friend, theres an answer I know

Pray, when the road is steep
Pray, when your hope gets weak
Know the Father hears through, the silence and the tears

Pray, when you don't know how
Pray, heaven's waiting now
And Jesus is just a breath away... Pray

The deepest sighs, of the heart
Sometimes its a strangle, when we first start
To wrap our needs, up in words
And trust that somehow we'll be heard

Draw near, and know you are loved
God hears, and His heart is touched

Pray for the strength you're needin'
To go on believin'
No matter what you face
You'll have the wisdom and the grace to.... Pray


Hope it'll bless your heart. This is a conflicted me, signing off~
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Personal Message: The words you speak reflects the character within you. How it be that the same toungue used to worship the Lord our God be used to curse? This should not be.

P.S- Dear Lord I pray for Sarah that You'll grant her the peace of mind to know that You're in control of everything and that You'll be with her in all that she does. I also pray for WeiXuan Lord that you'll comfort her hurting heart. I know that You're the only one that can heal her soul Lord I pray You'll draw her back to your heart once again. In Jesus' mighty name I pray, Amen.